Plot Map: It is November 6th. The door is left open; Bugs strolls out. He freaks, bolts under the house. Teresa is called. Four hours later, she persuades him out by dint of patience, plus a plate of odoriferous fresh mackerel donated by a kindly neighbor. Anita has a nervous breakdown. Gets over it. Life returns to “normal.”
Summary and Analysis: Anita adds suffering to pain, by imposing her “internalized rejecting object” (last post) all over the place. She learns, however, that an important distinction is to be made between pain and suffering. Pain is a mandatory dish on the menu of life. Suffering is an optional condiment. Suffering adds spice and drama to pain’s meat and potatoes – but it ultimately causes heartburn. Anita realizes this, becomes a happier person, throws away the antacids. Bugs watches, wonders what gives with his human. Anita and Bugs, together at last, proceed to next excellent adventure.
The essence of the thing, in forty words or less, is that by comparison with Bugs just as he is, I could really, finally see, with unaccustomed clarity, that I was no longer willing to swallow whole hog my inner negative certainty.
And toward that goal, the process being two-fold:
(1) To adopt an attitude of permanent vigilance against the temptation of certainty
(2) In order to understand and accept self and others in their differences.
And my particular temptation of certainty being:
My internalized rejecting object. The one that goes: I’m no damn good, you’re no damn good, you were no damn good first.