Fly Free Fangie

I am beyond sad to say Fang died this morning.

I am so glad to have known him.  I am so glad we had a wonderful life together. I am so glad Bugs is here beside me as I write this, being so sweet.

I took the last picture of Fang, above, two days ago.  Doesn’t he look well?

Here’s another one of him, from a few days before that.

Isn’t it plain that he was having a good life?  I wanted him to have a good life more than I can say.

I am glad he was taken suddenly.  I’m glad yesterday, his last day on this earth, was just as usual.  Peaceful.  Happy.  There was no sign.

But early this morning he woke me crying out.  I found him on the bathroom floor.  He had tried to make it to the litter box and couldn’t quite get there.  He was lying in his poop.  He was panting.  He began to struggle to clear his lungs.  He couldn’t.  The mucus was thick and ropy.  He fought briefly.  Then he threw up blood.  And he was gone.

I am glad his suffering was brief.  Only about ten minutes.

Fly Free My Dearest Darling Fang.

May you play, eternally, with your Shoelace Of Eternal Delight.  You can see it there, just there in the center of the tree trunk, waiting for you.  Always waiting  for you.




About nadbugs

Anita loves cats. This must be because she, too, has had nine lives. She’s been dancing since she could walk, she was a commercial artist and advertising producer, she earned a third-degree black belt in Aikido, she is a drummer with the Afrique Aya Dance Company, she is an attorney, and she’s a meditator and a devoted student of Nonviolent Communication. She also spent one lifetime sidelined with a devastating back injury in 1992. Since then – FELDENKRAIS METHOD® to the rescue. The FELDENKRAIS METHOD is all about dreaming concretely – thinking intelligently and independently by way of a gracious and kind physicality. The work affords all who study it a process by which to reach, with movement, into the mind and the heart, to make nine lives into one whole being.
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73 Responses to Fly Free Fangie

  1. FeyGirl says:

    Words cannot express my condolences… Tears spring to my eyes, knowing how much love exists between you. I’m so happy for you both, that it was quick — and that you were there. I send you big hugs, and endless empathy and ♥✿♥…

  2. lahgitana says:

    Oh god no. I’m so sorry. You have been there for him since the beginning and were there with him as he departed. Much love and many tears. L

  3. OMG! I’m sobbing like a little girl right now… what a shock. But I agree, it’s a relief that you were there with him and that it was fast. RIP wonderful boy cat, much love was generated because of your existence! Anita, my heart goes out to you, I’m sending you much love all the way from here.

  4. Oh, dearest Anita! So much love for you! I am crying for our loss, yet I know — KNOW — life is eternal, full of even more Delights than The Shoelace, and dearest Fangie lives on in another form now. For now I send HUGS and LOVE and offer whatever I can for you. You were such a blessing to that dear Fangie. As he was for you. That love never goes away. Sorry I can’t find any eloquence through the tears. LoveLoveLove

  5. I have been following your blog for a while. Your post brought tears to my eyes. I send my deepest condolences. Fang was a beautiful cat and certainly looked bright and well in the last picture you took. You must have had a wonderful life together and I’m sure it was of comfort to him that you were with him at the end. My heart goes out to you and Bugs.

  6. I’m so so sorry for your loss. ~Lyvonne

  7. I am so very sorry for your terrible loss. I know that there are no words to console at a time like this but may God be with you and give you strength.

  8. randomfelines says:

    OMG – I am so very sorry. Please know he was very loved and knew you cared for him. He was a sweet boy and we know you will miss him so much….

  9. Oh, Anita, I’m so sorry for your loss. How sudden and shocking, but better that he did not suffer. My thoughts will be with you and Bugs.

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  11. Anya says:

    I am at work, and am in tears – so very very sad to hear this. Poor Fangie, but he was lucky to have had a brief but happy time with you. My thoughts are with you.

  12. I’m numb with shock at the sudden loss of dear Fang. Please accept my condolences until I can say something coherent. I’m here for you if you’d like to email me privately.

  13. Sandra says:

    So sorry for your loss – sending virtual hugs! When I lost my golden suddenly last summer I found a chat room at Association for pet loss and bereavement to be very helpful.
    Zander’s Mom

  14. So so sorry for your loss. When an important family member dies, it is hard, but always remember you were there during the last moments, and your times together, though perhaps brief, were happy times. That is the best possible passing over the Bridge an animal can have. A happy memory and someone to wait for to see again.

  15. Bonnie says:

    This post really saddens me. I have so enjoyed reading about Fang and Bugs. As a cat person with multiple cats, I could often say “yup, that is how they act”. I am so happy that Fang did not have to suffer for long and happy that you were there with him when he crossed the Rainbow Bridge. Prayers to you and Bugs.

  16. Dianda says:

    Oh, oh, Anita. I’m so terribly sorry to hear this. I did not expect this at all! How could this happen? I am truely sorry for your loss, and I hope you and bugs are doing alright. I really don’t know what to say. I can’t even imagine how hard this is for you.
    If you ever need to talk, you know where to find me. I’ll keep you all in thoughts.

  17. Cat's Cats says:

    Had he been sick???? What terrible news and such a tragedy!!!!

  18. Amy says:

    I am so very sorry for your loss. May you be comforted knowing he had a wonderful life with you and Bugs.

  19. PlumaB and I are sending you purrs and hugs,
    so sad when we lose a loved one,
    Blessings to you.

  20. Oh no no no. So sorry. I’m in shock. Take care of yourself please.

  21. Herman says:

    My thought are with you dear Anita. I am so sorry for your loss. Cherish all the beautiful memories. We will all miss Fang. Take care.

  22. ashley47 says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss of Fang. You and Bugs shared your life and love with him which was a blessing for all three of you. We, your readers, will also miss dear Fang. Hugs…

  23. minlit says:

    …… This is awful . I am so sad for you. And so stunned. And so sorry. Sometimes, they stay for such a short time. But they never really leave. d

  24. Me again. I wish I could give you a hug. A tight, long, loving hug. Since I can’t do that, I did something else:
    Virtual hugs will have to do, so I’m sending tons of them to you and Bugs.

  25. Oh my God! I’m stunned beyond belief! As I’m sure you are! Oh Fang, what happened??
    I’m so very sorry for your loss. I think you know that we loved Fang almost as much as you did, being a Winnie’s Wish baby like my Leo is also. I can’t imagine how hard this must be for you, but I do hope you know how lucky Fang was to have you. He had such a hard start, and then almost died early, but then he found his forever home with you and Bugsy and was a happy young man cat. He knew your love and care til the end, and Bugs’s brotherhood and furry love. Thank you for caring for him, for loving him, and for making a place for him in your home and heart. I can imagine your sadness and we’re sending purrs prayers and love your way. I’m so sorry. Hugs to both you and Bugsy.

  26. Daisy says:

    This is sad, so sad Anita! Please know I send you and Bugs my prayers! Even if we’ve never met and I’ve only known Fang from the lovely pictures you’ve posted, I feel as if I’ve lost one of my own, and I share your joy in having loved him for a brief time, and now, sorrow in his passing. Keeping you and Bugs in my heart here in Long Beach, California…

  27. Christine C says:

    I’ve been quietly following your blog since you adopted Fang. I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for giving him a home with love, playtime, companionship and everything else every cat deserves. Sending hugs for you and soft pets for Bugs.

  28. looloo says:

    No! I can’t believe this! This beautiful cat! I do feel with you, Nadbug! I feel so sad! My husband lost his job today, I could cope with this, but when I read this, tears cannot be withdrawn, I really was in love with him, he just was gorgeous. I am glad you were there with him during his last moments on this planet. I send you lots of love and prayers and everything…


  29. CATachresis says:

    Oh Anita!! I am beyond sad at this news! The precious little boy. You took such wonderful care of him. In tears for you here. You three were so special. Please take care and cuddle Bugs. Hugs from us, Austin and me xox

  30. Wazeau says:

    I am so sorry to hear this. You gave him such a good home and family for the time he had, all that you went through to get him home and the adjustments you and Bugs made, were all worth it.

  31. Marg says:

    WE are so so sad to hear this news. We sure send lots of purrs and many hugs since we know your heart is breaking. You sure are in our thoughts and prayers.

  32. We are so sorry for the unexpected loss of your Fangy. He had a loving home and we know you will miss him.

  33. KC says:

    We are sending you lots of purrs and purrayers for the loss of sweet handsome Fang.
    I’s maked a tribute post on The Cat Blogosphere to Fang.
    Much love to you and Bugs.
    Love & Purrs,
    KC & Kitties & Mom ML

  34. meowmeowmans says:

    We are so sorry for your loss. Thank you for loving your Fangy so very much. We are sending purrs and prayers of comfort to you all.

  35. Laura & Taffy says:

    We are so shocked and sorry for the loss of your (our) beloved Fangie. We remember when he was first adopted into your love, too short a time ago . Comforting hugs and soft purrs to you and Bugs. Run free, Fang!

  36. We are bereft, reading this. Our love is flying to you–purrs, hugs and tears. Fang was a wonderful soul, thank you for blessing out lives with him. We will miss him immensely.
    Love, Trish and the Kats

  37. Oh we are so sorry to hear this. We send you purrs and hugs. RIP, Fang…you will be missed.

  38. Mark's Mews says:

    We are so very sorry to learn of the sudden passing of Fang. Our Purrs of Comfort to you.

  39. We are so sorry and sad to hear this. RIP Fang. (((hugs))) and purrs to your family.

  40. We are so sorry to hear of Fang’s passing!! Lots of hugs and purrrs to the Family!!
    Your TX furiends,

  41. Oh what a shock… but I know he was grateful to have had such a loving home, and that you were there for him in the end. I send you all my purrs.

  42. Oh no, oh no. I am so terribly sorry for the loss of Fang. Thank you for sharing him with us.
    Rest in peace, Fang. You were a Real Good Boy.

  43. Brian says:

    I am so very sorry to hear about your sweet Fangie. We had almost the same thing happen 4 years ago. We all send you many, many purrs and hugs. Run Free dear Fangie, run free.

  44. Fuzzy Tales says:

    We just saw this on the CB, and while we didn’t know Fang, we’re so terribly sorry. Our human knows what it’s like to lose a beloved cat companion quite suddenly and unexpectedly and the shock is terrible.

    We’re sending you soft purrs and gentle kitty kisses, and wishing Fang godspeed.

  45. katemrdixon says:

    I’m so sorry about Fang.

  46. katskats says:

    May the memories of love outweigh the grief of loss,

    purrs & prayers,
    The Teenage Mutant Ninja Kitty Horde & their Feeders

  47. Checking in again to let you know you’re in my thoughts. I never have good words to say about something like this (who could, really?) but am here.

  48. We are so very sorry for the loss of your beloved Fangie. We are so very sorry that he had such a short time to enjoy your love and being part of your family . Comforting hugs purrs to you and Bugs.

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  50. Anne D says:

    Dear Fangie–No tree too tall, no roof too high, no field too far.
    Dear Nadbugs-Pets are gifts. It is hard when we have to give them back.

  51. Marcy Benham says:

    Oh dearest Anita…words escape me as I feel your anguish. How fortunate you were to have known, loved and been loved by such a funny, endearing little character like Fang. Life and death are mysteries we can sometimes never unravel. I hold you and Bugs close to my heart in your time of sorrow. Much love.

  52. Marilia says:

    I´m so very sorry!
    Receive my condolences.

  53. Oh no. I am so sorry to read the news. This is so sad. We can all feel your pain and would like to be able to give you hugs and purrs in person.
    No word can do anything to ease the pain. We know that now. We humans are the ones lucky to have shared our late kitties lives. I’m sure they are all playing together where they are now.
    Goodbye, beautiful Fang. You were loved.
    Sending virtual hugs and purrs.
    Texas, Milou and their humans

  54. Oldcat says:

    I’m so sorry to hear about your loss. He will always live in your memories.

  55. Reblogged this on Texas, a cat in New York and commented:
    We were so sad to learn that Fang has left for the rainbow bridge. If you can, please take a minute to send purrs to Fang’s human and say goodbye to sweet Fangie.
    Her human has also written a beautiful tribute to Fangie:
    We are very sad tonight.

  56. I’m so sorry for your lost. I didn’t know Fangie, but I’ve been linked by Texas this morning. I’m sitting here now crying too, it affects me deeply. I wish you strenghts and hope you can derive comfort from your memories together and don’t forget, he’ll be always nearby.

  57. Sorry for your loss. He will always live in your heart.

  58. I’m so sorry for your loss! Thank goodness you have Bugs to give you comfort

  59. How terribly sad for all of you. You were with him at the end, that is always so important. One enormously loved pussycat. Our thoughts Erie with you – grieve well.

  60. Lisa at fLVE says:

    I came to your blog via Texas’ reblog. I am sorry to hear of this sad news. May time heal your wounds and love sustain you through this difficult time.

  61. Basil says:

    I am so sorry to hear about your loss!

  62. eripanwkevin says:

    I’m so sorry to hear about Fang….it must have been terribly sad to have to say good by to your loved one so suddenly….please rest in peace, Fang.

  63. laurence says:

    Je n’aurai pas eu le temps de le connaitre, seulement son souvenir, qui évoque des jours heureux.
    Je suis triste de cette nouvelle douloureuse. et vous souhaite beaucoup de courage pour surmonter le chagrin. Fang très beau, repose en paix.

  64. Dorothy Abernathy says:

    From the moment our eyes first meet theirs, be it through the bars of a cage, from inside a cardboard box or through the windshield on a cold winters day, from that first moment we know they will leave us broken hearted. But still we fall in love, for no other offers us total acceptance. In our too short time together they give us more than than we ever dearmed. A lifetime of love. Only the memory of one so loved and loving can make loving again the only possible answer. You were blessed with Fang’s love, and I believe that continues. I hope you can feel that love throughout the rest of your life.

  65. We are so incredibly sorry to have found your blog about Bugs and Fang for the first time today….oh how our hearts ache for your loss! We wish we had known about you earlier, and been able to get to know Fang through your posts. Your story sounds so very similar to ours. We lost Ryker to a blood clot that struck in an instant a few years ago, so we know a little how you must feel – though everyone’s grief is different.

    Though you must be reeling in shock at the suddenness, we pray you find comfort in the sweet memories you have of a life shared together. Oh yes, we can see he was happy! – you can tell in those photos.

  66. Oh poor Fang! Poor you! Big love and hugs from Kitty DrunkDrunk!

  67. starlight says:

    i’m misty-eyed and my heart aches upon reading your post.. Fang, you will be missed.. 😦

  68. Chuck Huss says:

    I am sorry for your loss. It is sad but there is comfort in knowing you gave them a good life. I have a cat that may go soon and I just want her to be happy while she is still here.

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  70. IsobelandCat says:

    I am so sorry. I haven’t visited your page for a while and I had no idea. What was it? Part of his underlying health issues or something else? I am very shocked. Hugs to you.

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